Sunday, 8 April 2012

Summer Is Here!


Just yesterday, after a long boring day at university; tired, I stepped into the house. The epilogue insists on letting you know, that the first thing I do when I enter my house, is to see myself in the mirror. There, following my routine, I went before the mirror and received a minor heart attack when I saw the evident skin tan! Boy, can I go presentable anywhere now?! *sulking*
Just then I realized, Summer is here!
Despite the ruin to my skin, the stupid tan, the sweat, the heat, and the prickles –summer has its charm! –for me it does have it, still. It reminded me of my childhood.
The summer evenings, when nani used to water the plants and I used to just buzz around until finally she’d agree to give me the turn! The session of picking green mangoes from the tree nani had at her backyard and taking active part in helping her pickle them!
I still remember how I used to sit at the backyard of nani’s house in my sleeveless vast and used to eat the ripe mangoes in the most indecent manner possible; with the mango sap running down my hands to my elbows!
Eating kachi imli and Kerry, and taking a promise from nani that she won’t tell my mother. Sure enough, she’d always agree before my innocent plea. Not to mention the consequences when my mother would discover the reason of my sore throat.
Can I forget the big green water melons; I would always insist on eating the red pulp direct without having it separated from its green skin –my father would agree, thinking it really cute but my mother would usually intervene for the sake of manners! Dang!
And when the summer would reach at its peak, lassi (a chilled drink made of yoghurt with ice in it) would get in; and my day would never begin unless a big mug of lassi is consumed! I would first drink the entire mug, and then pick the ice out of it and eat it; used to love the katar katar sound of it! Of course, I cannot forget to mention the smoothies my father used to make me.
Every night I would get a stomach ache; and a chilled glass of sprite with salt would always be the remedy of this complaint.
The monsoon season would come, and I’d go crazy with my cousins; going up at the roof and getting all soaked, playing kho kho and cricket at the lawn! Nothing would please me more, than aalu ke pakoray and nani be so kind to treat us all with jalebi. It would stop raining, I’d go in for a proper bath, get sober and change to dry clothes; in a while, it’d start raining again and I’d go again to get drenched! –my mother would shout at me, not that I’d listen ever.
Everyday used to be like a whole new experience; good great happiness in tiny little things.
Never mind where it has all gone; I had it once, and I’ll cherish it forever. You had it too, right? So survive the heat, endure the tan & prickles, and let it happen; Happy Summer. =)

Sunday, 1 April 2012

See

She was telling him the concept she carry about love and falling in love.

Uh, you see, I don’t understand any point when all of a sudden you state to have found some undefined feelings for a total stranger –stranger in a sense; you haven’t known him since always, right?
My idea of love comes from tragedy though. I like the concept of death in romance or some tragic reason. I know that’s weird, but the more tragic is the story the more true I perceive the love to be. Oh-kay well right, not really death; say, delay in union? Right.
Oh me? Well, that’s never happening, you see. I can’t make myself even think of it. I'm more than just sure.
Oh I don't know why is it 'not' possible.. I just think it isn't.
Though I think I would like to believe that I’m in love. Charming as it seems to be. I mean who doesn’t idealize about having an extremely super duper love story? With lots of drama, lots of romance and her very own Mr. Perfect! Since I think and idealize a lot, so I’m more likely to believe that I’m in love when probably I wouldn’t be.
The thought which sometimes trouble me is how am I going to know that if it’s really love or just my idealization? And what if it turned out to be really love which it most definitely wouldn’t, like of course; but just in case.. And and, what am I gonna do in such a situation? I mean, many social hurdles would definitely color my decision; and choices and options are something I hate! Like really hate. And what about the person who I'll fall in love with? What if he'd be just flirting and I got serious? I'm not sure if I'll even survive a heart break! I'm likely to get serious, you see. Not even knowing if this is what I want or not. Sadly somewhere I do identify with that particular school of thought which naturalize love. Pure impact of this mindless society!
Oh well, that bothers me too much at times. So yeah, my love story –if I get any –it should be just awesome! I just don't know how am I going to know? I just hope everything happens like it does in fairy tales. I am much in love with the idea of falling in love.

All this while when she was talking, he had his eyes on her. Now that she stopped talking; he didn't know what to say, just too amused as he was. Though coming from the beginning towards the end, he didn't miss the gradual contradiction of views she had.
He was smiling now, at his own certainty which was proportional to her uncertainty. He knew exactly what it was.

Thursday, 29 March 2012

This Is Not My Story

The trails and hues I talked of;
The shades of grey and the tinges of gold –no more do I see any.
The charm encircling me no more; no more should I search for it either.
The magic is there, better I conceal it; and crush the aureole –for that’s not supposed to happen.
And that shouldn’t happen; for this isn’t my story.
Change the track and switch the path;
However though, neither would help.
Remember I will, always; somewhere on this way, I got lost –and never was found.
So much of mist, so much of haze;
–So much of uncertainty, so much of nothing.
In the wrong time, in the wrong circle; I stand, in the middle of nowhere.
Step back and retrieve, I should; for this is not my story.

Monday, 19 March 2012

Fiction: Wish Fulfilled

......... "Hahah! Oh theres no way I'm ever falling in love!"
 -"Well, when did I say 'falling in love'? I'm talking about experiencing a heart break."
 "There isn't much of a difference to it, or is there?"
 -"Well.. There is."
"Fine then, I want to experience a heart break."
-"No, you don't. Trust me."
"Really? Why not?"
-"Its the most painful experience."
"How much painful?"
-"Beyond your imagination."
"Really?"
-"Really."
"Cool. I still want to experience a heart break."
-"Think before you make a wish, silly!"
"Haha, Oh come on! I'm gonna experience a heart break only when I'll be in a relationship, and theres no way I'm ever going in a relationship."
-"Its not about being in a relationship, its about being in love."
"And I'm never falling in love, like I said."
-"You never know. You can't be sure."
"Haha, nah. I'm more than just sure. Thats never happening.."

And here I am. My wish fulfilled.